A Moment Of Silence

Hi! Remember me? If not, allow me to reintroduce myself…My name is Aaaahhhh just kidding I won’t start this off like that 😭😂

Soooo, I decided to go offline on May 27. I stopped posting…I stopped scrolling… I just took a much needed break away from the screen to re-evaluate some things. It was so refreshingly necessary to have SPACE from the social media scene. Space to grieve over what I consider injustices. Space to sit quietly and listen to what was going on. Space to chew on what was said. Space to learn and educate myself. Space to enjoy my family. Space to think about life beyond the short term. Space to evaluate what I was putting into the public scene through my social networks and what my point even was.

I came to realize something; I enjoyed my time of less things to be concerned about. Minimizing my surroundings has given me better focus and drive to accomplish things I probably wouldn’t have before. I finally got some things in order. When I would think about if it was time to come back on, something would pull at me and say “not yet” so I kept not coming back yet…and I was cool with that.

Now I feel like the time might be appropriate. I believe I’m ready to be present in some kind of capacity, but definitely on a different pace. I don’t want to just show up and put something out there to be admired and passed on. I want to challenge myself to be brutally honest and cultivate more realness through my content.

Let me be clear, I still did me offline. I still cooked, I still Poshed, I still got out and kept adventurous…I just did it all from the backdrop of a black reflective screen with nothing to feel obligated to share. But now maybe I feel like sharing a little more.

I’d like to think I was missed. I hope I was missed at least a little if I’m honest. I know I missed engaging with you all so here it goes…

*And side note I haven’t been at this in like 10 months so please forgive my rustiness. Y’all know 10 months is like 10 years in social media time😝 Are hashtags still a thing???? Lol jk

JUNE

June was a fun month. We took my Buzzy Bee to the Fort Worth zoo for the first time (dark moment, but do you know how zoos operate?? Don’t make my mistake and google it yikes!) And then my little who (at the time was 8 mos old) decided to start walking! Talk about a jump in anxiety for me 😭.

In Posh world, I got sold a pair of fake converse! These were a decent pair of counterfeits too. I’ve got a whole write up on it on my blog if you’re into that kind of thing lol

During this month I also found a really cool black tv moms shirt that I always get compliments on.

JULY

July was a chill month. I wore my hair in wash n go styles, found an awesome recipe for pepperoni and thyme pizza that I added to my meal rotation and found a new way to shoot pix for my Posh closet.

AUGUST

August was adventurous. Me and the mister stepped out for the first time since Covid and took a much needed Dallas staycation at a nice boutique hotel near SMU. I’ll probably add that to the blog. It was super fun! And the place was like a desert so that made me feel safe and happy.

During August I had also started a redecorating project. See the thing was, when we moved into our home, the next month we immediately got prego with Buzzy Bee so I never got the opportunity to decorate completely. 4 years later, I’m getting the chance. It’s a mix of upcycled and thrifted plus industrial and contemporary style. Sounds likea hot mess, but I promise it comes together in the end lol.

And last but not least my oldest turned 3 in August! Loved every minute of just enjoying her enjoy her day. She’s grown so much and it’s bitter sweet, but I’m excited where she is and what lies ahead.

This was also the month that Chadwick Boseman passed and that was absolutely heart breaking to hear. It’s odd because it’s not like I knew him, but still, just a heavy time.

SEPTEMBER

September was a busy bee month for me. I discovered Facebook market place (the one social media I allowed myself to endeavor) and was selling stuff like crazy! It’s so nice to get rid of stuff!!! I feel cleaner, lighter.

September was the month I finally found a living room rug. Don’t judge me y’all, this is a milestone. I’ve been looking for a rug for 3 years!!! It deserves to be celebrated 😂.

This was also the month that I found a basically identical seagrass basket from West Elm at Hobby Lobby for half the price! Again, this was a huge win for me lol!

OCTOBER

October was another busy month. We have 3 birthdays, my nephew, mine, and my daughters all in a row plus me and hubby’s 8th anniversary so lots and lots of celebration!!

HBD to me at XOXO Dallas with my fave guy
Happy 1st Bday Jay bird!

Got my hair did for the first time as an adult from my gal Fran at DFW Beauty Studio 🙌🏾

Became a plant mom of 3 (Beck, Zee Zee, and Justus). *Beck 1 and 2 have since died RIP, but Zee and Justus are still holding up nicely ☺️.

Completed an up-cycle of an IKEA side table.

Found out I’m allergic to a particular sauce I got at World Market. My face swelled up like Will Smith in Hitch when he’s searching for Benadryl! Yikes!

Found a cabinet for my at home coffee/bar to upcycle! I painted it this chalky blue and added my mini fridge and Keurig.

Got my first pair of Jordans ever in life! And I’m in love, these are the Jordan One Biohacks and they are my favorite shoe in the whole world right now 🙌🏾

NOVEMBER

Officially became Members of our new church Pillar Church in East Side Fort Worth 🙌🏾.

Went to visit fam in Houston that we hadn’t seen in FOREVER!!

DECEMBER

Went to a wedding of some friends of ours. I didn’t realize how long it had been since being to a wedding until we were there and I was like “I haven’t been to a wedding in years”. It was wonderful to just be able to celebrate them.

Beck 1 died 😭My rubber plant.

JANUARY

Bought Beck 2…this one still ended up dying. I think maybe my kitchen table is NOT meant to house live plants 🤷🏾‍♀️.

Found a really great book called Forgotten Jesus by Robby Gallaty. It speaks about Jesus from His Jewish roots perspective. Very eye opening **I highly recommend**

Husbands bday is in Jan so I took him to Texas Motor Speedway to fulfill his need for speed. Ok honestly I was trying to “scare him straight” thinking if I got him to be driven really fast he might slow down with me in the car….didn’t work 😐.

They got up to 150/160 mph

FEBRUARY

I played Play Dough pizza with my kid for like a week straight 🤣

My husband treated me to a trip to my favorite store (Tory Burch) AND HE ACTUALLY SHOPPED WITH ME!!!! I found this fun little number and have been enjoying that new leather smell.

MARCH

This was the month I released my book Mama Braids and came back on social media. It was very emotional for me because all during this time I had been working on it behind the scenes with ups and downs and just a lot of anxiety. I’m glad it’s here…I may never write again 😅 JK.

So you’re all caught up. Either you’ve hung in with me til the end and read this entirely too long post or got bored and snuck out somewhere in the middle. I hope you at least opened the email and was like “Who emails at 7am in the morning??” 🙋🏾‍♀️Me…I do, because my kids make me be up that early 😂.

I’m actually up writing this the night before and scheduling it to go live at 7am in hopes of not feeling alone in my early up hours. I think that about does it for catching up. What y’all been up too? I’m nosey 🤣.

6 thoughts on “A Moment Of Silence

  1. Very cool b day gift for your husband. From one lead foot to another, it won’t get high speeds out if his system, it was more like Practice for higher speeds. 😊

    Nice post!

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